i dreamt about you
again last night
somewhere in the circus haze
in the crowd of galloping entities
there you were
pulling me close
after all of my pushing you away
angry with me somehow for something
and your kiss
so intoxicating
to extradite myself pure torture
to explain once more an agony
your hand holding
me down to you
too much of the old caresses
too much of your long borne hatred
bubbling slowly
to the surface
to consume me once more
to silence me forever and ever
till i cried out
no more i can take!
let me go
let me go
let me be something outside of you
let me be

in the galloping crowd
i'm surprised i can keep up with you
so i stretch out my arms
and put my claws into the sand
and gleefully
wildly
overtake



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i'm glad i woke from that dream. because i thought it was real. and that terrified me.